||[Oct. 16th, 2005|11:36 pm]
blahhhh.... i hate this feeling. I was just wandering on the net while i decided to come here. boom. right back to the whole shrooms ordeal. i know its over. But I quote "I realy wanted to try them" why do i feel bad?!?! i know i was doing the right thing, i know i was doing us both a favour. then quote again. "do em" blehblehbleh. i hate that. it made me feel all shitty inside again. i just wanted to drop the computer and run to my room and lay there for a few hours. it... just hurts alot. i dont know why it hurts... realy dont... but it just fucking kills my insides. Everything about the stupid topic. But, (smile) she told me to not let her. so i wont. thats deffinitly a promise i can keep. I think she just needs a lil support and help on the DONT side. it seems everyone keeps saying do it do it. but i think she needs someone in the red corner. as long as i`m around, drugs wont be either.